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Jim, my step-dad, died on the 9th. I haven't seen him in over two years, since a little after Connor died. My mom is completely destroyed. I wish I could take all her pain away.

I don't know how I feel about it. I think I'm mostly shocked, because it happened so suddenly. I was never close with Jim, but I do remember the four-hour-long talks we'd have about the most pointless stuff. Like when I was really into space stuff he always talked to me about the stars and planets etc. He was an alcoholic and I don't know if I'll ever forgive him for the things he said and did while drunk, but I do hope he's resting in peace.